seventeen..

i had been waiting for that day to come. 28th of July 2012. time goes too fast.. seems like yesterday when i kept asking the clock to run so then i could be 17. and now i am seventeen. being legal enough to try new things. i had been wondering what it was like to be 17. tho right now, i'm still asking to myself 'so...you're this old?' cause honestly, i had always wanted to grow really fast. now i'm like.. god damn it. i'm afraid of getting older. i wanna be like this....forever.

a friend wrote something to me that day. it said "happy birthday ma. don't ever get old ya. stay young."
man, it hurts. hahaha... but well, here i stand.

my mom made a private dinner that night. only family and real close friends were invited to the dinner. we didn't prepare anything tho. we didn't even buy the cake lol.

:) you know, it heals the soul just to see the photos.. lovely frrriends. some photos may not be posted.. check them out on my instagram or facebook. or path.

oh and i feel a bit dizzy lately. the schedule keeps me busy.. LIKE SERIOUSLY 24/7. senior year sucks. i need my bed. the pockets under my eyes just can't fade.. and the lessons keep double-ing theirselves which is kurang ajar. so yea, i can't focus on things too much. people call me lemot during these days. i know. even, typing this post is taking me more time than ever.. hardly think of any words to write.

-love